Ring ring Is that you on the phone?

To call or not to call.... today that'S the Question....
That's MY Question, I miss him so much...
but I know that to have it back will make it as painfull...
Should I fail to resist, for a short relieve even if I know it will bring back more pain later?
What the hell... i'm weak,I wanna sleep.

Send this fish Back to the Ocean

Yeah... Single again.
I feel like fish who's been rejected by the fisherman....
No I'm not an restricted fish species, just not the right type of fish for the season or so it seam.
That damn ocean is big... and well I think fishermen that kinda really wanna eat fish get rare. They all converted to crabs or shrimp I guess.
Fishes are way much to trouble to catch and they making more monet catching other things.
At least I enjoy swimming.. just wish I could have some friends to swim along....

The telephone....

Today I've got in trouble .... AGAIN...
It all started after I've been impatient cause my Boyfriend would just not call me back... or so I thought...
Yesterday, I've ask him by sms "Hey wanna come over sunday night?" No answer... so I ask again this morning by phone message, call me back... time pass.. .no answer no nothing, I try my chance with a mail around diner... still nothing and it' 8PM, I had figure by that time he would come over... so at 9 I call.. a bit upset.. to find out he was in his car comming but me calling abit upset got him upset cause he had sent me a sms never receieved.... so we where both upset. At the worst time, I drop my phone... it hit the ground the batteries went flying under the bed... he think I Hang up. He dont want to talk no more tonight.
Of corse he went back to his place... So i'm home, alone cause I got upset cause the phone lost some message.... How stupid is that....
I've got that kinda of a talent to fuck thing up like that.

anyway, I dont think I will really sleep....
no.
I wont.